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Rambling without ambling along the paralells of pseudo-fury.

Posted by: frontman | April 11, 2008 |

I was playing my PSP earlier this evening.

A simple outlet of the day’s frustrations being taken out on mindless hordes of enemies that should know better. After all, if you see a man that’s 7 ft tall with glowing blades of fire and grey and white skin screaming in a mad rush of primitive and debased anger, wouldn’t YOU run the other way?

People tend to do stupid things. Poorly scripted AI in video games even more so. But at least the spawned combat hordes have their lack of free will to blame. Humanity does not have that particular safety net to call upon.

The simulations in video games, or at least the ones that strive to maintain a semblance of reality in their digitally created worlds, are based upon the hard, solid and controllable values of programming algorithms, consistent math, and a basic understanding of push and shove (Newton’s law, every action has an equal reaction). In short, all things being equal, digital simulations of life are how we would want them to be, according to our imaginations, prejudices, wishes and wants.

The reality though, is rather damning. Life, seems to never do enough to inspire you on its’ own, leaving you high and dry, requiring that you search for the intended epiphanies and insights that you seek, spending lifetimes doing so. More often than not, you find yourself surrounded by self-serving idiots who continually make it a seemingly worthwhile endeavour to slow you down and piss you off.

Where am I going with this? Easy. Don’t kid yourself into believing that people around you are are somehow more mentally capable than you are on your blonde days, and that they actually possess the amount of intelligence crammed into your toenails. You are tougher, better, smarter and a hell of a lot more deserving of the good in life, than that.

And then something comes along to make you feel as if all is right in the world and that you are properly appreciated for your expenditures of effort, time, blood, sweat and tears. Making you lose track of how many idiots are actually populating your atmosphere, and forgetting that without these idiots, you wouldn’t have had to make any effort anyway.

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Everyone deserves to live their own life. and YOU, deserve better. If lack of appreciation and lots of torture are d cases, then u should decide whether to continue striving towards something idiotic or u just walk away. If u can handle it, then live with it. Otherwise, you will suffer even more..

Some people won’t listen; some know how to learn from their mistakes.

Some deserves to be given chances; some should punish by their own actions.

Even though it will lead to a nasty consequence, the decision is in ur hands.

aishiteru-yo; forever

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